today wasn't great
my head's been hurting all day, i'm tired as fuck and feel a little bummed
i know for sure that i'm about to fail all of my exams because i'm too addled to do anything with the very little time i have left and my mum doesn't even want to recognise the fact that meds might help me get back on my feet
i'm also feeling a bit lonely.
yes, i miss him a bit but, honestly? keeping him around does more harm than good to me. he treated me alright. i loved him but he was a bit ignorant at times. i can't go back though, wahhh'll (rightfully) be mad if i ever try to contact him again and i know that it's more trouble than it's worth so i won't. i'll stand my ground. it's not even that that's sparked this feeling up. it's the fact that water the roses by flavor foley has been stuck in my head and it's eerily similar to my recent feelings surrounding him. lord, why.
also, it's honestly really stupidly scary how one thing could lead to something's disappearance online, and you'll never know why it went and you'll probably never be able to find it again. this scares me a lot while making online friends.
anyways, night.